Realisation

It's been over a year since I wrote on this blog.  I just want to apologize to everyone whom I have spoken bad about.  I realize that I overreacted and acted immature.  Beeing 16/17 and in a totally new culture isn't easy, and we all react differently.  Having let all the impressions melt together and having thought a lot and reflected upon my year in Thailand since I returned to Norway has made me see things differently.   I really love everyone in Thailand, no matter how much I though
I was angry at them when I wrote this blog, I didn't know better.  I now see and understand why other people acted as they did, and why I reacted to that in not the best ways possible.   I have learned a lot about myself and other people.  Even though I experienced some things as painful back then, now I see that it has thought me a lot, and it's been a truly great experience.

Once again - I am very sorry for the bad choices and reactions, I hope you all find it in your hearts to forgive me.  I have forgiven everybody.   Thank you all very much for giving me a special year in Thailand that I will never ever forget in my whole entire life!  

I love you all!!!  


Benjamin <3

Getting to know paradise.

As I moved to Hua Hin on october the 26th I was sure I had got to paradise. Sandy beaches and perfect family. Well I proved wrong.. This entry will be short, as I will post it in a new blog, but here is a brief of what has happend:

There is a lot of violence at my school, and the director doesnt want me to eat rice with the other kids.

One teacher in special is really creeping me out, saying sexual remarks and touching me every day. I feel really afraid and dont want to go to school

I just got allergic reactions like ive never ever had in my life because of the (Six!) dogs in the house, even though AFS was informed in my application that I am allergic to animals! I seriously cant breath through my nose, I'm sneezing, my nose hurts and its flowing like the niagara falls.. this sucks!

Some teachers like to make fun of me infront of all the students..

Anyways check out my new blog - "The adventure continues", I think it's better to make a new blog, as this is a new chapter in my stay here in Thailand

sowy

Sorry for not writing here for more than two weeks (!)

Instead of making a year long entry (of my two weeks missing) I'll make a brief (haha we'll se about that) report of the highlights..

I think it started the 3. of september, when I got reallt sick and was totally weakless.. the friday before I had been to the doctor ( all alone vel å notice) and he didn't speak english, nor did he understand what was wrong with me, dispite this he prescribed me 3 big bags of pills.. I of course didn't take any of them.. my ko-ordinator also told me that he gave me sleeping pills.. like that's gonna cure my allergy.. then on sunday I was really sick, with fever and everything.. all alone on the matress in my room (cry me a river).. then on monday I was still feeling bad and my ko.ordinator asked my hostmother to drive me to the doctor.. they said it would be a lot cleaner place then the last one, and the doctor would speak english.. well the place was even more unhygienic.. it was a shop place with carton walls separating the waiting people from the doctor.. and it was crowded in the doctors room.. anyways the lady, though looking friendly didn't really speak much english.. I had to spell blood sample to her before she understood what I wanted.. and surprisingly this lady prescribed me the same stuff as the other doctor.. sleeping pills, something, and antibiotics.. my (soon former) hostmother took me back to their house.. and she told me to eat the antibiotics.. then after I had eaten rice she forced into me two pills.. I suspected it was the sleeping pills and I almost hysterically told her that I don't want to sleep.. she was like "maipenrai" (no problem, take it easy) and looked really ugly.. like an evil evil evil evil evil evil person.. I feel really afraid when I am writing this.. moments afterwards I felt really dizzy and bad, before she left the house to go to work.. then I crawled to my room and passed out on the floor. (when I later confronted my ko.ordintor with this she said that my hostmother wanted me to realx a bit... f'''ck that!) anyways.. as the internet shop is closing in fifteen minutes and the bugs are eating me up (the time is 21:44) I will hurry up.. I have to surrender.. but I promise I'll finish my update tomorrow.... Kyss, Ben

Bobb bobb dæri dæri bobb bobb suuuuuuuu..

Ok.. I'll start this thread with an improvised rap-poem ish thing..

Here we go:

"Yo yo.. All the chipp chopps in mah house yeah
I know you'r all retarded, but
Let's get this party started!

Chorus - kidz from the street singin
Sabai Sabai - In ya face
Maipenrai - It's getting late
2months almost - this place sucks
Right now I'd wish I went to America, Switzerland or Canada.
Where normal people live, and give, lots of love and friendlyness to me,
not just some people that want to have something to see
as a symbol of status, a perfect cyclus to
kill me slowly.. let my soul be dissolved by acid of hate
you know - it's not too late to say good bye, maipenrai F*CK YOU BITCHES!
I will leave ASAP - never look back of how it could be.. if only you had been nice people, not some psycho status egos.. I will leave to Hua Hin - Prachuap or where the wind blow me.. as long as I get far away from you..


woops.. I ended up writing an expressive rap fromed entry.. I'll write more later, but got to go to lunch and to my first thai boxing lesson.. *cheering sarcasthic* wohooooooo

Ben



btw my ko-ordinator rocks :D

Los Angeles - Bangkok

Update:

Friday I got to go to Bangkok with Pann! The bunsong guy (Formerly known as hostfather) couldn't take the decision on letting me to Bangkok or not alone, so he spoke to Weardaw and finally said yes.. (Thanks Weardaw!:) Bangkok is amazing!! even though I was only at Siam square for a day, it was great! A lot of nice girls! And most of the kids had a really cool style, and hair! I bought a lot of stuff.. and this girl gave me her phone number and trusted me with finding her a falang husband :p Right there and then it was really tempting to move to Bangkok, but then again.. it is crowded and really .. crowded :p so visiting it is differnet from actually going to school there.. and btw.. the kids speak really cool english in Bangkok! (we took the skytrain and it was cool :D )

saturday.. left from Bangkok at 5 AM.. slept most of the day... (trip took like 4 hours)

sunday: I went to the hairdresser.. ehm I mean barber of course.. with Pann and I got a new haircut for fourty baht.. post office was closed.. I spoke to Kim, a German volunteer 38 kms from me.. I'll meet her next saturday.. she will be here until october I think.. this other girl was really shocked and left after a week or so.. and I spoke to mum, Berni and Giorgio in Norway :D
I started packing my suitcase.. no matter what P.Orm says tomorrow I am going to move away from here! :D So I am organising my stuff.. and I have to send home a looot.. I won't be able to take it all with me to Prachuap..

monday:
I spoke to P.Orm! She said that she doesn't want to move me to the same school as Seb, but maybe to Hua Hin or somewhere in the Prachuap Khirikhan province... Wee :D I was really happy hearing this.. cuz then I know they are really into moving me away from here!! :D and I that I have 16 hours of thai is a lot compared to those I have spoken to , that have 4 hours a week.. My boxing gloves are getting dusty...

GO!

A lot has happend since the last post.
AFS as called me and told that they are looking for how to place me in Prachuapkhirikhan.
So I am crossing all my fingers and waiting for them to call me again and give me a go ahead.

Rice-ing

Ok. Like 15 minutes ago I spoke to Felix, and he was really nice and understanding. Actually after five minutes we agreed that he would go to the AFS office and check for options and said that they could move me, maybe to Bangkok, as they have technical schools there... Oh my God! I am getting a little afraid that the people here will be really angry at me.. and what if the new place is not better at all.. what if i'd be better off staying here? *SLAP IN MY FACE* Wake up drama king!! Ok.. I am really relieved and feel a lot better.. And I'm excited.. just please let them place me in the south.. to hua hin og prachuap k, or chumpon.. I am not keen at living in the chaotic 15 million Bangkok.. Ok.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa What will happend next? Felix was at the airport, but would go back to the AFS office this afternoon and speak to P.Hosting co-ordinator and find me a place to live ;) Then he will call me back.

They btw. stold me not to use the internet any more. only when the room is open after school without students.. .. that is like a rare thing..

Kyss og klem.. Benjamin

my gallery at flickr by the way.. of my boring life in nowhere.. aaa.. I'll miss my slogan though.. maybe I'll end up in a Nowhere in the south.. I want to live on a Nowhere island with white sand beaches and technical school and people.


Jesus! The kid next to me just farted.. JESUS!!! It smells like SHIT ( No duh.. it's a fucking fart!)