Bobb bobb dæri dæri bobb bobb suuuuuuuu..

Ok.. I'll start this thread with an improvised rap-poem ish thing..

Here we go:

"Yo yo.. All the chipp chopps in mah house yeah
I know you'r all retarded, but
Let's get this party started!

Chorus - kidz from the street singin
Sabai Sabai - In ya face
Maipenrai - It's getting late
2months almost - this place sucks
Right now I'd wish I went to America, Switzerland or Canada.
Where normal people live, and give, lots of love and friendlyness to me,
not just some people that want to have something to see
as a symbol of status, a perfect cyclus to
kill me slowly.. let my soul be dissolved by acid of hate
you know - it's not too late to say good bye, maipenrai F*CK YOU BITCHES!
I will leave ASAP - never look back of how it could be.. if only you had been nice people, not some psycho status egos.. I will leave to Hua Hin - Prachuap or where the wind blow me.. as long as I get far away from you..


woops.. I ended up writing an expressive rap fromed entry.. I'll write more later, but got to go to lunch and to my first thai boxing lesson.. *cheering sarcasthic* wohooooooo

Ben



btw my ko-ordinator rocks :D

Los Angeles - Bangkok

Update:

Friday I got to go to Bangkok with Pann! The bunsong guy (Formerly known as hostfather) couldn't take the decision on letting me to Bangkok or not alone, so he spoke to Weardaw and finally said yes.. (Thanks Weardaw!:) Bangkok is amazing!! even though I was only at Siam square for a day, it was great! A lot of nice girls! And most of the kids had a really cool style, and hair! I bought a lot of stuff.. and this girl gave me her phone number and trusted me with finding her a falang husband :p Right there and then it was really tempting to move to Bangkok, but then again.. it is crowded and really .. crowded :p so visiting it is differnet from actually going to school there.. and btw.. the kids speak really cool english in Bangkok! (we took the skytrain and it was cool :D )

saturday.. left from Bangkok at 5 AM.. slept most of the day... (trip took like 4 hours)

sunday: I went to the hairdresser.. ehm I mean barber of course.. with Pann and I got a new haircut for fourty baht.. post office was closed.. I spoke to Kim, a German volunteer 38 kms from me.. I'll meet her next saturday.. she will be here until october I think.. this other girl was really shocked and left after a week or so.. and I spoke to mum, Berni and Giorgio in Norway :D
I started packing my suitcase.. no matter what P.Orm says tomorrow I am going to move away from here! :D So I am organising my stuff.. and I have to send home a looot.. I won't be able to take it all with me to Prachuap..

monday:
I spoke to P.Orm! She said that she doesn't want to move me to the same school as Seb, but maybe to Hua Hin or somewhere in the Prachuap Khirikhan province... Wee :D I was really happy hearing this.. cuz then I know they are really into moving me away from here!! :D and I that I have 16 hours of thai is a lot compared to those I have spoken to , that have 4 hours a week.. My boxing gloves are getting dusty...

GO!

A lot has happend since the last post.
AFS as called me and told that they are looking for how to place me in Prachuapkhirikhan.
So I am crossing all my fingers and waiting for them to call me again and give me a go ahead.

Rice-ing

Ok. Like 15 minutes ago I spoke to Felix, and he was really nice and understanding. Actually after five minutes we agreed that he would go to the AFS office and check for options and said that they could move me, maybe to Bangkok, as they have technical schools there... Oh my God! I am getting a little afraid that the people here will be really angry at me.. and what if the new place is not better at all.. what if i'd be better off staying here? *SLAP IN MY FACE* Wake up drama king!! Ok.. I am really relieved and feel a lot better.. And I'm excited.. just please let them place me in the south.. to hua hin og prachuap k, or chumpon.. I am not keen at living in the chaotic 15 million Bangkok.. Ok.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa What will happend next? Felix was at the airport, but would go back to the AFS office this afternoon and speak to P.Hosting co-ordinator and find me a place to live ;) Then he will call me back.

They btw. stold me not to use the internet any more. only when the room is open after school without students.. .. that is like a rare thing..

Kyss og klem.. Benjamin

my gallery at flickr by the way.. of my boring life in nowhere.. aaa.. I'll miss my slogan though.. maybe I'll end up in a Nowhere in the south.. I want to live on a Nowhere island with white sand beaches and technical school and people.


Jesus! The kid next to me just farted.. JESUS!!! It smells like SHIT ( No duh.. it's a fucking fart!)

Onsdag

Been a little while, so here's a little update:

Friday:
Al had his birthday party, I arrived two hours late because my hostmother didn't want to drive me, and the bunsong guy had taken the car to bring his mother to his wifes house.. or at least that's what he said.. Suddenly around 20:00 he arrives with the car, out of the car steps his mother, his older son, his three year old nephew and the teenage nephew. The house was crowded, and the people were loud as always. I got to go to Pann's place and eat pasta, and Felix from AFS in Nonthaburi was there, I agreed with him that I'd call him. We celebrated mothers day at school, and the ex-afser girl from Germany explained stuff to me and was nice.

Saturday:
I wake up by this three (as the bunsong guy says.. but the kid seems more like 4 + ) year old kid hammering my door, then opening it, look at me, and close it. A rather boooooring day.. The little kid always klimbed on me, punched me, and went into my room, made a total mess of the order I had made the day before, ate my Norwegian chewing gum (This time it's personal :P )
and was in my room for one whole hour! Crazy crazy.. The seven people on 40 square meters are really loud and makes me go insane! I ate silk worm coucons today.. it was all soft and tastes rotten.. if they are going to give me worms, then let it be fresh ones!



Monday:

I tried to arrange a meeting with Felix, but as I got in touch with him, around 10 o clock in the morning if I don't remember wrong, he was already at the bus station. I was going to call him later.

bunsong guy told me to go with them to maha sarakham city and so I did. We went to the city, surprisingly as I was going to ask him to let me go to the mall, he came with the suggestion himself: One hour at the mall went icredebly fast.. I bought pizza to my co-ordinators kids, and to myself.. It was a micro size pizza, without kidding.. It was like the size of a regular pizza slice, just sliced up into four.. but it was goooooood.. I had to eat it in my room, and by then it was cold and stuff.. but man it was great to eat pizza!!!

Tuesday:
If a nervous breakdown feels like it does, then I just had one.
It feels like my whole body is torned apart, ripped up with knives and I just feel DOWN!
I have to get away from this place, it drives me crazy. Emotionally I am now close to death, I am really depressed and want to get away! I know it's fckin emo, but this place is making me going mad. I tried to call Felix several times, but he's cellphone was off.

Wednesday:
I'm at school.. Depressed.. ;( (emo) going to thai class soon, then I'll call Felix around noon.

Benjamin

S H O P P I N G

Ok.. Saturday my co-ordinator took me to Korat - big city over two hours with car from us. Both of us asked my hostfather, and he was really positive and like "just take him with you, it will be cool" attiude. We went to this gigantic shopping center, we ate sushi and I bought a bunch of DVDs, gifts, sports equipment, shoe, and candy! I spent 3 times as much as I had put up of my budget, according to my co-ordinator almost as much as a rice farmer makes in a year. My suitcase is now filled with my stuff, and locked, to keep my sneaky family away.. Seriously they look through all of my stuff, My room doesn't look like I leave it in the morning. Anyway... I didn' t sleep a second saturday evening, I got home like 23 or something from Korat, and watched films until eight o clock in the morning. My 11 year old hostbrother knockes on the door "see father" he says. I go to the "father" that's sitting watching TV. He get's angry and says quoting " you are easy to go away with anybody" And " I had to work hard yesterday at the seminar, with no one to help me" I got really angry.. first of all: He said clearly twice that it was cool that my co-ordinator drove me to Korat, second: I have spent three saturdays at his seminars, he has needed my help about one minute each weekend. the rest seven hours I just sat there and was bored! and my hostfather was angry because I don't speak to his 11yr old son, I have been trying to speak to the kid, he just looks an other way and doesn't even TRY to communicate back to me. And then he says with a rising voice, quoting "why do you come here??" me:" What?" "Why do you come here??" and he says that I have to do things for them and I'm like "What do you want me to do?" Hostfather, quoting " Yes". Like a former AFS student asked "Is he a total retard?" Then, as a topping on the cake he says "You have any clothes to wash?" I'm like yeah I have.. him: "You have to wash it yourself, we don't do everything for you!" I was really pissed then, what the fu(k was he thinking I would do, wait ti'll they get washed by themselves?? I had planned to wash them, but maybe not all people prefer to wake up at 8 am on sunday to wash clothes. I had planned to do it around noon.

He asked if I had any plans for the day, I said that I was going to the cambodian border with Pann and Al, but they'd call me to tell what time I would leave. He was angry and said the part of " you go easy away with anybody" and "I allow until now, I say Ok, but in the future I can stop you from going anywhere." My stomach hurts as I am writing this.. The guy has such bad energy, and his eyes were just sending out "evil evil evil". I washed my clothes by hand , took me about 3 hours, and my hands were all f..kd up from the washing powder. I was really pissed at him, and went crazy on my clothes infront of my 16 year old hostbrother. I just smiled to them.. well.. I just ditched 4 classes today, two of them so I can sit at the computer room.. btw. a girl from germany that was AFS student in thailand 2004/2005 is here.. she is really nice and helpful. and cool :) Benjamin

Chattin around

Nothing cool happening right now.. Sitting at school.. it is really free today.. but I came in.. the teachers are learning to make powerpoint presentations on some sort of Intel seminar.. I took the chance to be a whole day at the computer room, so I'm downloarding the movie "sirkel"

ben

A little (long) update

Ok.. today it's Thursday.. and well.. not too
much has happend except for:

Sunday 30th of july.: Watapann took me to Maha Sarakham to eat pizza
and go to the Tesco supermarket.. I have to
have someone driving me 86 kilometers to get
to a place where they have pizza, dvds, and
shops! Even though they didn't have postcards
in the whole place I visited.. So sorry ppl,
who haven't got any postcards.. I suppose they
are short of supply when it comes to postcards
in Maha Sarakham.. I want to go south!..

Monday: A week since "the big fight" Hostfather still mute.. giving me a silent
treatment.. (yeeaauw.. i'll erase the
treatment part.. :s )
Spoke to AFSthey told me that the advisor will try to fix
technical school to me here.. SHE STILL DIDN'T
ANSWER MY QUESTION, on what OPTIONS I have on
families, and moving to the south!

Tuesday: Co-ordinator spoke to me, she said that there
is a guy in the village that is good a
designing.. She will arrange someting.
Advisor said that I was to write down what
porgams I want to learn, cuz a teacher at
school is teaching flash.. (but I don't know
thai, and the guy doesn't know english.. (and
I'm critical to the flash knowing part too)

Wedneday:
We drove around to a lot of my hostmother customers after school, we went home like 19:45
I am sleepy today..

A little (long) update

ok.. it's been more than a week since the last
time I wrote here, and so much has happend:

Saturday a week ago (23.July.2006): My hostdad
held his first seminar.. (better to say his
assistents did, he was sort of in the
background) and there was absolutely no need
for me (or Al or anybody he had urged to
come). So I spent most of the time in the
computer room.

Sunday july 24: They told me in the evening
that they would go to Maha Sarakham city and
meet because my hostmom was going to some sort
of meeting, and in the meanwhile, they said, I
could go shopping.. That was the only reason I
went along to sit in a car jammed with people
(we were 6 ppl!) for 85 kilometers.. we drop
off my hostmom at the meeting, with her
collegue, and my hostfather told me that we
would go to shopping, just going to say hi to
his mom. We spent 4 fucking hours at his moms
place, me mostly sitting and staring out in
the air, until I, in the last hour discovered
that they had cabel tv, so I watched fox news. My hostfather said that we would pick up my
hostmother, and THEN go to shopping.. after
we finally leave his mom (he must have a real
separation anxiety) we pick up my hostmother,
and start driving away from the city.. after
ten minutes I'm like:" Eh.. aren't we going
shopping?" he is like "eeeeeeeeeeh... we...
have are in a busy" ( we were fucking going
back to their house.. that's nothing to hurry
about.. the pikkhue forgot the whole thing..
and sucks at excuses) after twenty seconds
"eeeee I forget it.. ok" (NOT OK!! Now I am
REALLY PISSED OFF!!) We go back to their
house, eat rice, and watch tv, go to bed.. I confer with Maren, I decide to call AFS the
next morning to ask what options I have with
the family..


MONDAY July 25:We are free from school for the next 3 days.I call AFS in Bangkok in the morning, no
answer.. 9am, only answering machine, at my
fourth call they pick up the phone. I am
connected over to like five people, none of
them speaks english, then they out me over to
this guy that spoke no english and was the
hosting cooordinator (sounds like a really
important job.. where you'd might wanna be
able to communicate to the students that are
beeing hosted..) He didn't understand a
SHIT!! I said " my hostfamily has not provided
me with a bed" he:" What you say now? " I
repeat.. he:" I don't understand.. bed?" me,
repeating that I have no bed. him:" What makes
you belive that.. they are beeing bad to you"
me" A BED A BED TO SLEEP ON.. A Fucking BED!!"
him: "aaah a beed" ok. I speak with advisor
bye bye, you call back in afternoon. (not
letting me talk any further.) I call back
around 4 pm and the coordinator guy isnt
there, they tell me to speak with this girl..
she speaks some better english than the guy..
she:" okeeeeey.. we have discuss with
coordinatooor. " ME:" I want to know what
options I have" I start explaining that my
school in Norway would only axcept my year
abroad if I go to a school providing me with
subjects relevant to media and communication
(like java, flash, design etc.) I explain
that I don't feel a part of the family. I ask
her nice and slowly if she could look around
for options, for where in the south there are
available families, and only keep it between
us, cuz I don't want our my hostparents to get
upset.. she says " oh yeah, Morns mum tell us
you want to change family" - me:" What? who is
Morn?"-she:" The Norwegian girl" me:" MAREN?"
she:" Yes, her hostmother tell us you want to
move" She says ok, she will look for options
and call me back.. She told me to calm down
and everything will be OK. ( like a robot
anwering machine)

30minutes-1hour later I get an sms from her
saying that my advisor will speak to me, and
the family will buy me a bed now, not just
when they have money. I concretely asked her
to CHECK FOR OPTIONS, and keep it between the
two of us. I was pissed of at AFS then.

Around 6-7 pm my hostfather comes home, not
saying anything, just hi.. (not that he
usually says anything more, so I think it's
OK) thirty minutes later or so, I see my
advisor arrive with Al, she wanted me to come
outside and speak to her.. She explained me
that AFS had called her and that my hostfather
was sad that I had told AFS about how I live. We spoke a while and agreed that both me and
my hostfather would communicate better. She
said that she would bring my hostfather out,
and said that it's nothing to worry about, She brings him out, a lot of bla bla about him
not understanding me, me not understanding
him.. and we have to communicate.. My cell
rings (Maren) and I go inside, on my way out I
bring my laptop, with their application in it
as pdf, I scroll to the page with the pictures
they had put in, and to the one with "AFS
Students Bedroom" I Asked,"why is there a
picture of your bedroom, as afs students
bedroom in the application" Oh my GOD!! You
should have seen the looks on his face, my
hostfather almost exploded!!! He started to
yell like, DO YOU THINK WE HAVE MONEY?? DO YOU
THINK WE ARE RICH?? WHAT!!?? DO YOU THINK WE
HAVE MONEY!!?? I was terrefied, he is
officially a psychopat. He started to yell
ugly tings about me to my advisor in thai, cuz
she several times said to him with a worried
voice, "you don't say that, you don't say
things like that" (he probly sent me six feet
under, and to hell and cast evil spells on me
:S ) My advisor was like: " yes yes I know,
he just build house." (I'm like, what the
fuck!?? It sure is not my problem that he
wanted an AFS student just for the prestige,
and he has no place to put me, and now his
prestige is ruined, infront of my advisor.And the she says to me : "Ok, you can go
inside".. I was seriously shaking.. then
suddenly she comes in the door " Al, come, we
are leaving".. She just left me there with
this psychopat that had already stabbed me to
death and shot me fifty times.. I was
terrefied and feared my life, I went to my
room and locked it. ( my hostmother came home
like 11pm or something)

A whole fucking week the ****** refused to
talk to me. His wife had to communicate with
me, even though she doesn't speak english!! On friday he talked to her in thai, and she
studdered to me in somewhat thai-english that
my hostfather wanted me to go to his seminar
to help the next day.. He was fucking standing
right fucing infront of me, but couldn't tell
me in my face, he had to do it through his
wife..

SATURDAY (30th of july 2006) :The cruel family wakes me up at 6 am!! I never
wake up before 1pm,. max 11-12 on weekends..
they tell me to go to the stupid seminar (you
heard it. StUPID!!!, cuz there is no point for
me to be there!!) Then we arrive at school..
After unpacking and one hour of waiting for
the attendees to arrive, he speaks to me! my
hostfather actually open his mouth and spoke
to me.. he wanted me to do some stuff opening
the seminar and play games with the people and
speak english with them..